Tuesday, May 17, 2011
JIM SHAW ATTORNEY AT LAW FUCKING KICKS ASS
All the crappy stuff Ive either encountered or heard of over all the years with all the attorneys I've dealt with has totally been renounced after dealing with this man. He is the epitome of great defense attorneys and has brought nothing but the truth to light. Granted he has had some come to Jesus meetings with me but I definitely have one of the best around. Thank you so much Jim Shaw, you are one that I have ever felt totally confident in your abilities. Your work can never be appreciated enough. You have made me see the light on a number of issues and I appreciate it. Lets get em.
TRUTH
the truth is that there is nothing cool about ruining lives especially your own. The cars, jewelry, power, cash, and so called respect are all fake. Its a smokescreen that it all produces to lure people to things they are missing in their own lives. Its the work of true evil. I prayed to God the other night for the first time in a while because I have heard it alot lately and I tried it. It was the most humbling experience I have ever had happen to me. I actually put my faith in something greater than myself and actually trusted that things are going to be okay. The belief of something greater than ourselves has never abandoned me but I now am sure that a combination of faith and faith and faith equals the game winning tactic and a surefire path to happiness in life. Crazy, huh?
FOR REAL?
Look here's what it boils down to. The politics of it all may fall in my favor, if so great, but that doesn't change the fact that my intentions are real and that I mean well. It means that I am embarrassed of my past but able to own up to it. Im able to say that drugs fuck up everything and I mean everything, period. Its all fun and games until you are on the bluebird for a nifty 50 in the slammer. Yes on paper, I would send mysself to prison, but you have to look at the other side of the coin because there are always two sides. I am not what those papers or records tell, I am totally different in a sense. I have realized that the direction I was traveling was not good, not good at all, not for me, not for anyone around me. I made the choice to bring all that to a halt and the District Attorney is dead set on putting another notch in their belts. Ive given them plenty so can we see through the bs to the real person at hand? Thats all Im asking. Hopefully my writings will reach someone and hopefully help them to see the light. I owe it to the world, this I know.
will work for insurance
Best Regards,
Jon Paul Goff
jonpaul.goff@yahoo.com
817.889.4622
work
did finance and sales at bmw in florida, commercial landman oil and gas industry, sold corporate computer training, mortgage business, sold bikes and high end imports, banquet captain at City Club, bartended at deep Ellum Cafe, repos, corporate collections 50k up, managed restaurants, clubs, did security and bodyguard work, owned ebay resale company, owned limo company, built multi million dollar empire 3 times starting with absolutely nothing. brokered real estate deals, commercial property tax consulting, interventionist, rehab referral specialist, antique buyer,I dont have resume but i can put one together depending what direction the job called for, know what I mean?
Finally
WELL AFTER ALL THIS BULLSHIT iVE PUT MYSELF THROUGH i THINK SOMETHING MAY HAVE FUCKING SUNK IN. i MEAN GODDAMN 40 FUCKING YEARS? ITS NOT SOME GRAND MIRACULOUS COURSE OF EVENTS, IT WAS ME BEING AN ASSHOLE AND SO SELF CONSUMED THAT KEPT ME FROM BEING THE BEST i COULD EVER IMAGINE BEING. ALL THE ENERGY I PUT INTO ALL THAT GANGSTER SHIT KEPT ME FROM REALIZING WHAT TRUE HAPPINESS WAS ALL ABOUT AND IT ALMOST COST ME MY LIFE AND MY ENTIRE FAMILY BUT I NOW HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THINGS THAT I START. SOMETIMES I HAVE TO CATCH MYSELF AND BEING ABLE TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN THE THINGS I THOUGHT I SHOULDVE FINISHED AND THE THINGS THAT I KNEW JUST TO LET GO IS WHAT KEEPS ME IN CHECK. MY HEAD IS SO CLEAR AND IM THANKFUL THAT IM ABLE TO MAKE RESPONSIBLE DECISIONS AND NOT ACT ON ANY OUT OF CONTROL EMOTIONS THAT I HAD BEFORE. I CANT SIT HERE AND SAY I DID IT ALL ON MY OWN, WELL YOU KNOW WHAT IT WAS UP TO ME TO PICK UP WHAT MY FRIENDS IN OKLAHOMA WERE LAYING DOWN. AND I DID. I DO OWE THAT CHANCE TO MY BIGGEST FANS, MY MOM CHERI CETTO, HER BEST FRIEND AND MINE ALLEN CETTO, AND ROBERT GRAHAM MY UNCLE WHOM IVE LOOKED UP TO FOR A VERY LONG TIME. IF IT WERENT FOR MY AUNT LIZ. UNCLE JOHN, AND GOOD OLE DOUG I WOULD NEVER HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR. kATE RON RYAN CARLA DONOVAN AND MANY MORE. aND TO ALL MY FRIENDS IN OKLAHOMA MY LOVE AND THANKS GO OUT TO YOU ALL. HERE'S TO GOING THE EXTRA MILE! I LOVE YOU ALL.tODAY I AM TRULY HAPPY AND YES IM STILL FACING LIFE IN PRISON AND HAVE YET TO SEE MY DAUGHTER AGAIN BUT I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WILL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL THE CASKET LID SLAMS SHUT AND IM COVERED IN SOIL. THAT SEEMS TO BE FAR OFF STILL SO WATCH ME MAKE MIRACLES HAPPEN AND SHAME ON THOSE WHO COUNTED ME OUT AND THOUGHT I COULDNT CHANGE. I GOT NEWS FOR YA, ITS TOO LATE FOR THAT BECAUSE ITS ALREADY GOING DOWN. IVE MADE IT MY QUEST TO LET OTHERS KNOW THAT ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE AND YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT LIES IN STORE UNLESS YOU PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER AND MUSTER UP EVERY OUNCE OF COURAGE YOU'VE EVER HAD AND WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND GIVE IT YOUR ALL. I NOW KNOW ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. I KNOW I CAN HAVE EVERYTHING.PEACE AND GOOD WILL TO ALL THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD. cHANGE IS POSSIBLE...............
Tryin'
Looking back at the past few years is really trying for me, but to see how far I have come and the person I have become as a result of all that is really phoenominal. Its hard for me to see any changes because it has all been so gradual but hopefully my attitude and my actions speak for themselves.
I would like to tip my hat to Jenifer Cellmer who really stepped up to the plate and took really good care of my daughter. She is surrounded by love and has everything she needs and then some. It took alot of courage to step up and take responsibility for such a huge endeavor. Im being sincere when I say thank you JJ.
I have done every right thing i know to do to get to see my daughter and I will keep doing that no matter how things turn out. I will continue to pursue whats best for my family at all costs. I am a intelligent, loving person who chose the wrong path. Okay that was easy. I am on a different path now and I dont expect everyone to automatically believe it after so many years of the same behavior. I know some will never believe anything else but my past and thats their loss. No love lost there.
I could sit here and make excuses but that is so lame. I want both my family and Leddys family to know that my intentions were never for everything to turn out like this. I made poor choices to put myself here and I have actively taken responsibilty to change that behavior. Once i was able to get honest with myself the rest became easy. It has been a year and a half since I left for Oklahoma the first time and with persistence I have made it to this point. Now that Leddy is home whatever decision she makes I will respect, but we made a pact to give our daughter a chance at a loving life with both of her real parents and make any changes needed to ensure that. I have done what I said I was going to do and will continue to do so. I reconstructed my thinking and my attitude to be most beneficial for me and my family. What can I say? I defied the odds thusfar.
My hope is that our families can get over the past and realize that its all about that little girl. Anyone that knows me knows that all children love me and that Im an advocate for the children as a whole. Despite all the disagreements between her family and myself I would never keep her from anyone that loves her. Jayden Paul deserves all the love she can get. I have to put all the conflict behind me and I will do whatever it takes to ensure a loving, happy environment for my daughter. That calls for everyone to get along and realize that children are innocent and we all are not. With that being said I ask that from everyone and am doing so myself. All I can do is what I know is right. Everyone needs to join hands and forgive and love unconditionally. Like it or not I am her father and we are all family. Who knows a few of you might just like me if you took the time to know me. As far as these cases go we are going to beat them both because Im fully aware of the concerns of bringing me into her life only to be taken away. If I honestly believed that to be the case I would never do that to my baby out of spite to the in laws. I am a big enough person to see things for what they are and be honest with myself. I can put myself in someone elses shoes. Im a firm believer in miracles because I have seen plenty happen and I ask that you all believe in them too.
Leddy and I owe it to our daughter to give her the chance to have both her parents in her life. I know how it is to grow up without a father and I dont wish that on any child.
I would like to tip my hat to Jenifer Cellmer who really stepped up to the plate and took really good care of my daughter. She is surrounded by love and has everything she needs and then some. It took alot of courage to step up and take responsibility for such a huge endeavor. Im being sincere when I say thank you JJ.
I have done every right thing i know to do to get to see my daughter and I will keep doing that no matter how things turn out. I will continue to pursue whats best for my family at all costs. I am a intelligent, loving person who chose the wrong path. Okay that was easy. I am on a different path now and I dont expect everyone to automatically believe it after so many years of the same behavior. I know some will never believe anything else but my past and thats their loss. No love lost there.
I could sit here and make excuses but that is so lame. I want both my family and Leddys family to know that my intentions were never for everything to turn out like this. I made poor choices to put myself here and I have actively taken responsibilty to change that behavior. Once i was able to get honest with myself the rest became easy. It has been a year and a half since I left for Oklahoma the first time and with persistence I have made it to this point. Now that Leddy is home whatever decision she makes I will respect, but we made a pact to give our daughter a chance at a loving life with both of her real parents and make any changes needed to ensure that. I have done what I said I was going to do and will continue to do so. I reconstructed my thinking and my attitude to be most beneficial for me and my family. What can I say? I defied the odds thusfar.
My hope is that our families can get over the past and realize that its all about that little girl. Anyone that knows me knows that all children love me and that Im an advocate for the children as a whole. Despite all the disagreements between her family and myself I would never keep her from anyone that loves her. Jayden Paul deserves all the love she can get. I have to put all the conflict behind me and I will do whatever it takes to ensure a loving, happy environment for my daughter. That calls for everyone to get along and realize that children are innocent and we all are not. With that being said I ask that from everyone and am doing so myself. All I can do is what I know is right. Everyone needs to join hands and forgive and love unconditionally. Like it or not I am her father and we are all family. Who knows a few of you might just like me if you took the time to know me. As far as these cases go we are going to beat them both because Im fully aware of the concerns of bringing me into her life only to be taken away. If I honestly believed that to be the case I would never do that to my baby out of spite to the in laws. I am a big enough person to see things for what they are and be honest with myself. I can put myself in someone elses shoes. Im a firm believer in miracles because I have seen plenty happen and I ask that you all believe in them too.
Leddy and I owe it to our daughter to give her the chance to have both her parents in her life. I know how it is to grow up without a father and I dont wish that on any child.
Damn
Jon Paul Goff "Damn it feels good to be a gangster....." Bushwick Bill of the Ghetto Boys. Well let me tell you something Bushwick all the lavish living, big houses, fat ass rides, undying pride, big time flexin and platinum Rolex'n doesn't mean shit when your daughter is about to have her second birthday and you only held her once the day she was born. (see notes for the rest...)
It doesnt mean shit when you are facing 80 combined years for being accused of dealing shitloads of drugs. I am one of the lucky few thusfar. I have fought this out by myself throughout the duration and done a pretty damn good job so far. I made it further than I ever dreamed possible. Now I am faced with the realities of trial and I am within an inch of either winning it all or living in prison for the rest of my life in a brutal, violent, dysfunctional existence which isnt me by any means. I am sucking up my pride and putting my busness out there like this, I was fortunate enough to get into a program that really changed my life and me as a person. I made unbelievable leaps with huge progress. Or thats what a handfull of people tell me.!! I lost my wife almost two years ago to this bullshit, I lost my daughter the second day she was born, our dog (who was like a family member and great with kids) got euthanized by the police in one day after being deemed aggressive by Westover Hills Police, I have sold everything I own, paid over 100k to bonds, attorneys, rehab and so forth. MY PLAN IS TO GET BACK IN THIS PROGRAM, GRADUATE, TRAIN TO BECOME A DRUG INTRERVENTIONIST AT THE FACILITY, MARRY LEDDY WHEN SHE COMES HOME NEXT MONTH AND BRING HER UP TO CANADIAN TO WORK WITH ME SAVING LIVES, GET JAYDEN PAUL BACK AND RAISE HER IN A GREAT ENVIRONMENT UP THERE AND BE TRULY HAPPY WITH MY FAMILY.
The problem: I ran out of money just short of graduating and am in a life or death situation in needing someone to sponsor me for the rest of the program.I have pre-trial No. 2nd and first Trial Nov. 14th so there is a time crunch It is most certainly tax deductible and would alleviate my legal situation showing that extreme 180 degree turnarounds are possible and rehabilitation is a better solution than locking up half the country. I have negotiated it down to 6500.00 dollars and thats all I need to make this happen. Basically someone can help save my life and get it back in a tax write off in a few months. I already sold the kitchen sink or I would do it myself and I am not good at asking for help, but everything rides on these next couple of weeks and I have put up one hell of a fight and come too far to let this stop the show. My contact at Narconon Arrowhead is Doug Schotters and his number is 918.339.5870. He is on my facebook also. He can attest to the leaps and bounds I have made in the past year and can answer any questions. He is my contact there for making this happen.If there is anyone that could consider this and make this happen for me I would be eternally grateful and mow your yard with my shirt off after I did a bunch of push ups FOREVER. No but really this is serious and my heart and soul is in raising this lirtle girl and saving lives of those who thought it was impossible to change. I know its not. It;s come down to the wire and the pressure is on stress levels are high, my fingers are crossed and on my knees praying that somehow some way this miracle could take place. Today I am truly happy for the first time. All my love and best wishes goes out to all my friends and family that are out there somewhere. Thanks for reading my note. Peace.
It doesnt mean shit when you are facing 80 combined years for being accused of dealing shitloads of drugs. I am one of the lucky few thusfar. I have fought this out by myself throughout the duration and done a pretty damn good job so far. I made it further than I ever dreamed possible. Now I am faced with the realities of trial and I am within an inch of either winning it all or living in prison for the rest of my life in a brutal, violent, dysfunctional existence which isnt me by any means. I am sucking up my pride and putting my busness out there like this, I was fortunate enough to get into a program that really changed my life and me as a person. I made unbelievable leaps with huge progress. Or thats what a handfull of people tell me.!! I lost my wife almost two years ago to this bullshit, I lost my daughter the second day she was born, our dog (who was like a family member and great with kids) got euthanized by the police in one day after being deemed aggressive by Westover Hills Police, I have sold everything I own, paid over 100k to bonds, attorneys, rehab and so forth. MY PLAN IS TO GET BACK IN THIS PROGRAM, GRADUATE, TRAIN TO BECOME A DRUG INTRERVENTIONIST AT THE FACILITY, MARRY LEDDY WHEN SHE COMES HOME NEXT MONTH AND BRING HER UP TO CANADIAN TO WORK WITH ME SAVING LIVES, GET JAYDEN PAUL BACK AND RAISE HER IN A GREAT ENVIRONMENT UP THERE AND BE TRULY HAPPY WITH MY FAMILY.
The problem: I ran out of money just short of graduating and am in a life or death situation in needing someone to sponsor me for the rest of the program.I have pre-trial No. 2nd and first Trial Nov. 14th so there is a time crunch It is most certainly tax deductible and would alleviate my legal situation showing that extreme 180 degree turnarounds are possible and rehabilitation is a better solution than locking up half the country. I have negotiated it down to 6500.00 dollars and thats all I need to make this happen. Basically someone can help save my life and get it back in a tax write off in a few months. I already sold the kitchen sink or I would do it myself and I am not good at asking for help, but everything rides on these next couple of weeks and I have put up one hell of a fight and come too far to let this stop the show. My contact at Narconon Arrowhead is Doug Schotters and his number is 918.339.5870. He is on my facebook also. He can attest to the leaps and bounds I have made in the past year and can answer any questions. He is my contact there for making this happen.If there is anyone that could consider this and make this happen for me I would be eternally grateful and mow your yard with my shirt off after I did a bunch of push ups FOREVER. No but really this is serious and my heart and soul is in raising this lirtle girl and saving lives of those who thought it was impossible to change. I know its not. It;s come down to the wire and the pressure is on stress levels are high, my fingers are crossed and on my knees praying that somehow some way this miracle could take place. Today I am truly happy for the first time. All my love and best wishes goes out to all my friends and family that are out there somewhere. Thanks for reading my note. Peace.
Hell No
They must have got mad at that post because they filed a motion to stop visitation. Its funny that she has tried so hard to keep me from my daughter, got Leddy arrested, called police on me. I mean there must be something more going on. You cant just take someones child and do the things she has done. Its really pretty terrible. I am so tired of turning the other cheek trying to be the bigger person. All it has done is left me defenseless during these surprise attacks. Gloves are coming off now. I have been so cool to her and I was even to the point of going to mediation with her instead of going to a trial because I was so tickled about how great of disposition my daughter has. I had no earthly idea I needed to be on the defensive for these unwarranted attacks. All I ever wanted to do was be a father to my daughter and Ive really had it up to my ears with all her bullshit and fake ass dramatic B movie acting jobs in court. She thinks since she slept her way into her own insurance office that she can bully people around with her money. Well she may think that things work like that but not with me. I wont just be intimidated and pushed around or have things held over my head like she did her own sister to force her to sign her rights away. You know what I usually dont let my language get nasty because my vocabulary is ridulously huge, but fuck all that underhanded bullshit she is pulling. Im pissed off now. Do I stoop to her level? Hell no. Kyle Whittaker and I turn up the heat on that trailer park, insurance selling, reformed blowhead hooker.
Lovely
All I can say is thank you to the ones who had the courage to stand behind a not so popular situation and believe in the unbelieveable. Its not over by any means but I am definitely worn out. I can truly say that after overcoming the fear of being alone the true work came to the surface. All the years I put into being a not so good guy has to have a time limit on making it good. It could be forever which would be underdstandable. I can work with that, I owe a lot of good and I am willing to put in the work to make that happen. Who in the hell else would have gone through all the things I have gone through that didn't really want to change. The fact is that drugs and the drug life are a real misconception in America. Nothing but heartache and despair come out of all of it. Life in the end is empty and regret plagues the mind of many that wish they would have done something differently. Well Im giving it my all to show that there is no glamour, nothing real about it. It is all a facade that leads to the destruction of many lives. It ruins families, it is everything that it doesn't seem with nothing positive coming out of it. I used drugs to mask my true feelings or to block out my inconsistencies and lack of ability to deal with life on lifes terms. Things don't automatically get better all of a sudden, there are so many past actions or lack thereof that have to be repaired and not everyone is going to accept and understand. Im just trying something new for once in my life and it has been working thus far. It has been the hardest road I have traveled and I refuse to give up. I decided to use this blog to further some of my personal opinions and views on the life that Im attempting to create for myself. Im not looking for sympathy or anything else. I just want to be heard. People have such a tendency to pass judgement or make a decision without all the true facts of the situatuion. I will make it a little easier. Yes I have been given chances and I have managed to mess things up, but never before have I taken the steps I have now pursued to make my life better and put the drugs and all it entails behind me. People talk shit and I have too, but there has to come a time for the cards to be out on the table and someone to take responsibility for their actions. I have done that, yes, I was a lost confused person for many years who turned to drugs as an escape. People on drugs dont make the same decisions they would if they were not on them. Its proven. Hell I proved it myself. I am not a bad person, actually I am a loving, caring person with an intellect that is now geared toward helping the young people realize that anyone can change and that anything is possible. All I need is that chance, having 80 years hung over your head for all these years has really taken it's toll but I still move forward. I hope someone may see this and realize that miracles are possible. Thanks you.
Times Are Tough
Well in the last waking hours things seem to be exhausting even more so than I could have even imagined. My hands seem tied while everyones perfect lives go on. I have given it my all and I still can see no light at the end of the tunnel. Its all a toss up and I feel like the boy in the bubble. I have to pull back and reassess the situation and make one last go at it. I cant blame anyone but myself. I chose the path I traveled and now its time to pay the piper I guess. Can a person make drastic changes in one's life and expect everyone else to believe it? Who the fuck knows? I dont know what to think anymore.
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