Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Finally

WELL AFTER ALL THIS BULLSHIT iVE PUT MYSELF THROUGH i THINK SOMETHING MAY HAVE FUCKING SUNK IN. i MEAN GODDAMN 40 FUCKING YEARS? ITS NOT SOME GRAND MIRACULOUS COURSE OF EVENTS, IT WAS ME BEING AN ASSHOLE AND SO SELF CONSUMED THAT  KEPT ME FROM BEING THE BEST i COULD EVER IMAGINE BEING. ALL THE ENERGY I PUT INTO ALL THAT GANGSTER SHIT KEPT ME FROM REALIZING WHAT TRUE HAPPINESS WAS ALL ABOUT AND IT ALMOST COST ME MY LIFE AND MY ENTIRE FAMILY BUT I NOW HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THINGS THAT I START. SOMETIMES I HAVE TO CATCH MYSELF AND BEING ABLE TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN THE THINGS I THOUGHT I SHOULDVE FINISHED AND THE THINGS THAT I KNEW JUST TO LET GO IS WHAT KEEPS ME IN CHECK. MY HEAD IS SO CLEAR AND IM THANKFUL THAT IM ABLE TO MAKE RESPONSIBLE DECISIONS AND NOT ACT ON ANY OUT OF CONTROL EMOTIONS THAT I HAD BEFORE. I CANT SIT HERE AND SAY I DID IT ALL ON MY OWN, WELL YOU KNOW WHAT IT WAS UP TO ME TO PICK UP WHAT MY FRIENDS IN OKLAHOMA WERE LAYING DOWN. AND I DID. I DO OWE THAT CHANCE TO MY BIGGEST FANS, MY MOM CHERI CETTO, HER BEST FRIEND AND MINE ALLEN CETTO, AND ROBERT GRAHAM MY UNCLE WHOM IVE LOOKED UP TO FOR A VERY LONG TIME. IF IT WERENT FOR MY AUNT LIZ. UNCLE JOHN, AND GOOD OLE DOUG I WOULD NEVER HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR. kATE RON RYAN CARLA DONOVAN AND MANY MORE. aND TO ALL MY FRIENDS IN OKLAHOMA MY LOVE AND THANKS GO OUT TO YOU ALL. HERE'S TO GOING THE EXTRA MILE! I LOVE YOU ALL.tODAY I AM TRULY HAPPY AND YES IM STILL FACING LIFE IN PRISON AND HAVE YET TO SEE MY DAUGHTER AGAIN BUT I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I WILL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL THE CASKET LID SLAMS SHUT AND IM COVERED IN SOIL. THAT SEEMS TO BE FAR OFF STILL SO WATCH ME MAKE MIRACLES HAPPEN AND SHAME ON THOSE WHO COUNTED ME OUT AND THOUGHT I COULDNT CHANGE. I GOT NEWS FOR YA, ITS TOO LATE FOR THAT BECAUSE ITS ALREADY GOING DOWN. IVE MADE IT MY QUEST TO LET OTHERS KNOW THAT ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE AND YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT LIES IN STORE UNLESS YOU PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER AND MUSTER UP EVERY OUNCE OF COURAGE YOU'VE EVER HAD AND WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND GIVE IT YOUR ALL. I NOW KNOW ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. I KNOW I CAN HAVE EVERYTHING.PEACE AND GOOD WILL TO ALL THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD. cHANGE IS POSSIBLE...............

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