A good friend of mine recently told me, "JP we're not out of the woods yet," and you know, that is a statement that rings true on multiple platforms for a guy like me. It's easy to get balls the size of grapefruits when things are going smoothly and everything is going your way. I'd say complacent, but I hate that jargon, I put it in a way that I understand. Let me say this, it takes elephant nuts to weather the storm. It takes guts to show face after falling down hard, to swallow your pride, and try to not be a slave to your ego. Yeah I'm talking about me. The transition has been pretty smooth so far, it really has. There have been a few bumps in the road. It's easy to want to give up and I can't say I haven't experienced that a million times or two in the past 6 months, but I can't just accept that bullshit as even being an option. Hell, I even paid my toll tag fees online today. Ive never paid those before because I'd ride with no plates on my motorcycle. If there was any way to get over on the man I would do it. Would. I'm back in touch with my friends (not the ones in Mexico) and it's a good feeling. It took an act of Congress to get my driver's license, I have insurance, I talk to my Mom on a pretty regular basis. I'm reunited with my sisters and I'm really close to my Aunt whom I love dearly just as i do the rest of my family. I reach out to people that need help finding treatment. I'm a man of many hats and today it's all good. That's not to say that temptations aren't there because they are. As long as I realize the consequences for my actions and the weight of the risk/reward factor I should be okay. If you owe you are going to pay. Plain and simple, I did. I played, I paid. This isn't a soapbox to post on facebook to show that my life is so perfect. The bottom line is that my first move wasn't to get some birds fronted and get right to the Mercedes dealership. Life is pretty simple and I'm trying not to complicate it too much. Don't hesitate to reach out, I'm easy to get a hold of. Yall be cool and holler at your boy. Peace and love. j
